stars or dust?

I stood in the queue heart confused

silently weeping

as grief surprises me

slowly seeping up through the spaces

social distancing has created

i reach to help a lady

before realising

my hands are tied

and then it was I looked

deeply within her eyes

and silently cried

mouthing out the words

of an unspeakable truth

sometimes

it pains me to see

we are living within

a new reality

where everything has changed

strangely

it was the thought of you

and your unending love

that most bought my heart undone

these past few hours

when we are connected

it is as though I stand beneath a shower

of golden light

as doorways appear opening

from underneath

those barricades

and this is the truth of love

I have to keep

silent for a while

for now I know there are powerful forces

of disbelief that conspire

within our hearts

to block the birth of love

that seek only to kill off

the tender shoots

emerging

from deep roots

so long covered over by

a heavy mantle of ice

lately it only hurts me more

to second guess or think twice

about the truth

there is web of lies someone wove

out of bitterness

and I was too naïve

to heed your warning

but now the deeper truth is dawning

as tears appear

and in some strange and miraculous way

I feel I am being freed

from an ancestral burden so deep

I could never intuit

anything but

tiny portions of it

then

from deep within the silence

I hear the angels voices

reminding me

that we all have to choose

what we give power to

if wish to be

born anew

from this passing wreckage

that all that is unfolding

is but

a test of love

that asks

what forces we will most

show allegiance to :

stars or dust

truth or rust