Seeing the funny side : afternoon reflections

The past few nights I have just found myself spontaneously breaking out into laughter.. I not long ago got back from the Supermarket where the meat, poultry and fish section was totally stripped bare… then went to the deli section in search of chicken thighs only to be told there were none.. not all was lost as I found a small amount of them at the nearby chicken shop.. but oh my.. .all of this over a virus and due to media coverage and something so so deep pervading our collective.. Really we have to smile and even after I cried at the agent this afternoon I can kind of see the funny side of it all… but what the hell is humanity doing?

I even see myself tending to over do things at times. I find it hard to sit still quietly (especially at that critical time in the afternoon between 3 and 7 pm when I usually get the worst of my panic attacks – not this afternoon though), lately my guidance has been telling me to do just that and who knows if this enforced isolation and social distancing will not serve the purpose of forcing us to become more inward turning and less manically busy or social.

For myself I have just been to the library only to find it nearly empty of people.. got myself a couple of good books to tide me over this period and its nice to be at home or in nature with Jasper right now.. I am not even feeling like having much involvement with too many people that I don’t know and love well.. apart from those random meetings that happen on some of our walks. …I am just tuning into guidance and will settle myself in some peace and try to listen as little as I can to all of the fear mongering…

Today I count myself lucky to have nabbed a few chicken thighs and have a good supply of food at home.. Luckily in Australia there is not going to be a huge lock down, though gatherings of over 100 people are being limited…and sadly the Comedy Festival was cancelled..never mind I can always watch comedians on You Tube.. why not count my blessings.

I listened to a video my Marianne Williamson last night and she said that the best medicine for our immune system is forgiveness and gratitude… I am lucky to have healed so much with my own sister, to the point now that she feels like one of my closest friends.. I had the sense today in our meeting at the real estate agent’s office that as the two of three survivors of our original family unit of 6 we are undergoing the unravelling of so much ancestral karma.. as Mars slowly inches toward exact meeting with Pluto and Saturn I have a sense of a 28 and 56 cycle coming to a new turning point….and what I feel growing is a new birthing of love and connection between us, for that I am extremely grateful. that I can finally feel the love of all my departed family and the deep sense that they are always close by both of us and even my brother who chooses to have only limited contact right now.