Confusion

Whenever you draw near to me now

There is a rush of fear

I feel deep within my soul

That spins me round and fractures peace

Where is it that I can find relief

When the words you say

Make me feel you just do not see

Into the truth of me

My dear

We have had this out

So many times before

And now the silent scream you left me with

Tried its best to find the way out

With a wound that cut so deeply into my flesh

And brings me back to tears

You are right

It might just be fear

That makes me act this way

But never the less

Don’t I have the right to stay

Where I am protected

This is not a sign I am defective

And even if I swirl around in my confusion

Isnt it just delusion

To open myself to this again

When so many times you have not lived up to your promises

To be my friend