Thank you God

My heart is full of happiness tonight.. I just returned from collecting my sister from the airport and we shared a meal, for those who don’t know my second sister suffered from very serious anxiety and depression for over 15 years and had numerous hospitalisations and a suicide attempt but it was a blessing to know she had been away on a retreat at a beautiful spot where she shared a wellness weekend with Sam Wood, his wife and 47 other people…As we waited outside for our meals to arrive, she showed me photos of her walks, the celebration dinner she attended on the last night of the retreat and the new friends she made. It filled my heart with joy to see her having some time to just experience life and relax and to know she is no longer debilitated and well on the road to recovery.

I just drove home with such thankfulness in my heart.. God knows we have not always had the easiest of relationships but I know over all of those years my sister was loving me in her way and trying to be close. Hurtful things now are receding and I have a feeling that the next years we share are going to happy ones.. We spoke of going to Holland for a trip next year, my sister has never visited my father’s homeland and in the past week I have renewed a connection with my a member of my father’s family related to my grandfather by his grandmother who was a sibling over there.

Slowly over the past year with my Mum’s death I have felt torn threads that were hanging moving towards other hanging or torn threads and attempting to be woven into a new pattern and these interconnections are growing.

There is not much more I can say except that today as I drove home from dinner I was just so grateful to have a living sister to be able to collect and for her to be able to connect to the best of her ability. The restaurant we went to was one of my Mum’s favourites and it was the first time I had been there since she died, but somewhere in the wings I am sure Mum was watching us both and so happy to see that her two girls were together….I know I will sleep well tonight.