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Far behind me

Oh how I long to be

In that place

Happy and free

Where burdens of the past

No longer eclipse

The light of this new day

But still this pain is not a disease

It speaks of so many truths that I have lived

Agonies my body bore

Under the weight of silencing

Straitjacketing and oppression

So if I give you the impression

There are storms and gales and wild seas

Living here deep inside my heart

Please don’t let it take you away from me

For riding in this ocean

I glimpse the depths of love and possibility

Still living

Even if submerged

By high seas

And when the surge it comes

An open heart will receive it

But a closed heart will make of this

Deluge

An enemy

Trapping the wounded soul

Who so badly needs to free the truth

Remember

It was never about you

Only the response

To glimpse of the possibility

You offered me

To finally release and understand these feelings

So I can be free

And leave them where they truly belong

Far far behind me

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  1. This is so beautiful, so raw and has so many truths about many survivors. You are a strong woman who expressed such deep emotion in this piece. It is so incredibly relatable for me. Thank you. Love you Joni. Have a wonderful Sabbath my friend.

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    1. Bless you Joni. I recently hurt someone deeply who was trying to love me. This comes out of what I have been processing about my own fear of letting love in again and dealing with many years of relational trauma. Thanks so much for reading and reaching out honey ❤

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      1. Thank you for sharing it helps others. I love you honesty so refreshing. Love ya. You will find love eventually I believe that someone that gives you absolutely no reason to be afraid to trust them. None of us know what God’s plan is but I hope this new friend brings friendship and comfort in a safe and loving way. Hugs 🤗

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      2. Love this. I actually have hope today as he accepted my apology. Even if it doesn’t work out with him I have learned so much from this last experience and I do have hope Joni… who knows what God as in mind. I don’t 🙂 Love you too… and hugs also 🙂

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      3. That is wonderful news. We are sensitive creatures and are easily hurt, well if your anything like me, but I toughened up in my forties. I hope Hod will gift you with a love in your life. Hugs my sweet friend. Love ❤️ J

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  3. Warmly and soulfully written Deb… reminds of this piece I wrote a few days ago…maybe I’ll put in a poem….
    Pain & Love
    “We never really own it
    We don’t like to share it
    We’re not able to wear it
    We’re naked when we feel it”

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