These things I cannot say

These things I cannot say to you anymore

Rest quietly within my own heart

There is a shore that I adore

Where the waves of peace

Just lap

The edges of my consciousness

Here it is I rest with you

As I remember the poems

We shared

Possibly so much of it was

Projection

But for you to accuse me of

Deception

That stung

And brought my heart

Entirely undone

Nevertheless

I will hold to love

For what other thoughts or feelings

Are worth thinking of

For they will never tell the truth

Of how we longed

Just for peace and happiness

And there will never be any relief for me

In ongoing disappointment and bitterness

These nasty pills we swallow

When we deny the truth of the sorrow we felt

As all we hoped for fell apart

So it is

I will hold close in my heart

All the words of love

I can no longer say to you