Exploring some more of my ancestral past

Life is amazing the way it connects you to other souls. Years ago at the dog park I met a lady from England who turned out to be the great great great granddaughter of one of our distant ancestors. The name Grace Bone was so unusual that somehow it must have come up in conversation and we got to talking and a long while later I went round to her place and she printed me out a detailed history of the births and deaths of William Trudgeon and his wife Grace Bone, William was the great grandfather of my great great Grandfather, Thomas.

I kept hearing the name Sebella in my meditations and healings over the past week. I knew a long time ago I printed out a few of the charts of all my great grandmother’s siblings and it turns out Sebella was the second name of the 4th child. I also found out the sad fact today after exploring the print outs from Ancestry that Claire gave me that my great great great great Grandfather lost 6 of his children before he died in 1895. I also found out tht one of the children he lost died on my mother’s birthday 1 November. I do not know how the children all died, one died on the day it was born one at 2 years of age, and three others died on the same day age 12, 18 and 20. The last child died at the age 35 shortly before his own father died a few years later.

I could not help but think of all that sadness passed down from the past today. William also lost his two parents in the middle of all of those other losses. I love the way Ancenstry.com gives you a timeline with important births and deaths. I awoke today feeling I was on a boat and the floor was rocking beneath me, I then felt sea sick and I realised it was this time of year my ancestors were on the boat. Sebella would have been with her Mum and Dad, as I believe at that time they had only had 4 of their 17 children. I am sure in those older generations with the lack of contraception that many lost children at young ages. My ancestors today were telling me how rough conditions were and they lost the first baby Eliza Jane (the namesake of my G Grandmother) shortly after arriving in Lyttleton, New Zealand.

I am not as sad today about Chahir. I prayed for him. I may be fated for relationships with men to be severed. I have reconnected with an old male friend who is just a friend and undergoing his own separation and we both decided a friendship trumps a sexual relationship at this point, there is so much confusion out there and a recent article shared on the Awakened Empath page spoke of huge earth shifts affecting ancestral lineages and balance of masculine and feminine energies on the planet right now. I am sharing it below for anyone interested.

https://www.radradiance.com/post/ride-the-waves-the-process-of-surrender