Sometimes the truth dawns on me
That I have lived far too long in sorrow
Hurts that may not have come
Had I not tried so hard
To fix what was
Beyond repair
And I have leaned
Sometimes it simply costs
Too much to care
And keep throwing your empathy
Down an empty well
So now
After so many years
Of shedding tears
Let me seek the path
To happiness
For I am growing tired of sorrow
And you showed me another way
That leads to something better
So come whatever weather
Its is your company I will keep
It is close to your heart
That I will seek
To live
Finding a means of being
Freer of this
My heavy burden
Of sorrow
Oh Deb, your in depth words immediately made me think of this lovely song by Lisa Hannigan….. wow it’s nearly midnight, best I run before my glass slipper turns into wood…..
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Loll just logged on after breakfast Ivor to read this. ..hope you had a restful sleep, β€
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I’ve just finished breakfast… Have been doing some blogging, but to concentrate this morning, sleep deserted me last night, don’t think I can do much more……I’ll have a shower and go for a coffee and cake…… otherwise I’ll be stuck in my little haven hear……. and I always feel better for making the effort to get about for a walk, and it’s a cooler and less smokey today, maybe I’ll get a decent walk in…… the thick smoke has restricted how much i could do…… Cheers Deb, have a great day….my cards are on the table now….
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I am going to head out too soon Ivor. Walking and fresh air do wonders for us, its such a relief we got a small fall of rain last night. The leaves were all soft when I went out to do some clearing up earlier. Enjoy your coffee and your walk,
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I’m sure I will Deb…. maybe we’ll chat after, I do enjoy our chats,…comforting arms….xx
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Me too Ivor. When I had my morning coffee I don’t usually but I had a raspberry friend in honour of you…we went to the English garden near the nursery today after our walk to the dog park. I am off to therapy in an hour and a half…
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I’m at my fav coffee shop now, a relax, some doggie patting, πand a little piece of writing πβ€οΈ
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Sounds lovely Ivor. We just had a big hail storm. It has rumbled on by now.
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Did they get the rain on the fire areas βπ₯π¨οΈππ
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I think so but my radio carked it a moment ago and I rely on that news I haven’t seen other news yet, Ivor.
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Sorry, I’m having my usual Thursday night beer and chat, so I don’t either… πππ
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Melancholy gets a grip which pulls us down. I feel like this often it stops now.
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But there is soul deep in melancholy we are in such an adversarial relationship with it at times. I think its only problematic when it clouds things and blocks forward movement. I will always have sadness living deep inside me over certain things, I guess its about choosing our focus for the day. But we don’t have to fight the deep.
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I agree there will always be things especially in certain relationships which will make us sad or melancholy. They are held in a good way within the soul or otherwise it will have to be dealt with and released. There are regrets which I hold in love the memories bubble up , They have strong pull on the soul. A dialogue starts with those in spirit I became lost for two days last year but I managed to spin it around to pull on the love connection instead of the melancholy. We do not have to fight the deep. Take care.
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I understand what you are saying Nanette. there is a destructive kind of pulling down… so I do understand. I have at times been pulled down and haunted by ancestral ghosts. Now they speak more clearly I encourage them they are heard but cannot ask me to ransom my life.
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Ask them to take responsibility for their own actions and deal with their own karma wherever they are and to stop passing it on to you. You are not responsible for their wrongs, “sins of the fathers” so to speak.
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Beautiful and so true. You have learnt my friend and 2020s would be divine π
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I understand this piece way too much. We wonβt to make peace but at what price. All we can do is try. I donβt think God wants us to get beaten up over and over again. We can still pray for these people and then let it go. Love β€οΈ you my friend. Joni
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