The love that you long for is seeking you
It lives deep inside of you
Follow deeply your longing for love
Enter the hunger
And feel the roaring deep inside your heart
Resounding between your ears
Recognising how often
Fear is there too
And how often
It lies to you
Telling you this love
Will be found
Within the mirror of another
And yes
That understanding does contain
Some grain of truth
And yet if you were not the one who could love too
How could that love ever really find you
For fear would shut tight the door
And no matter how hard love called
Your soul would turn a deaf ear
Had not the love from within
Once found you
This is amazing! Subtle, but I get you. It’s very true. When you haven’t loved yourself for a long time, you can forget what that even feels like, and therefore how strong you can be by yourself.
I’m not sure how absolute/unconditional self-love is, at least in my case. Through my long period of social isolation/lack of any feeling of achievement, it was extremely hard to see any value in myself. I could only base it on what I’d previously accomplished/who I’d previously been. Or I could find glimmers of it, for example pride in overcoming some here-and-now obstacle. But I’m only now remembering the feeling of self-love, through being part of this community, having a way to help others, and successfully indulging in my passion of writing! I think that’s partly down to my hyperactive nature–– having lower dopamine and Needing to be somewhat busy/making things.
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This was PERFECTLY EXPRESSED… I am so like you wow the nasty voices I used to hear telling me what a waste of space I was the true heroism is to defeat all that bs… I get the need to be busy too though I am resting a bit today.
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Wow, thanks! Glad I understood it correctly :).
Yes, totally agree. Yes and sometimes you do need to rest, without feeling guilty. I lost a lot of momentum over christmas from too much forced down time! So having to battle these voices and things extra hard again.
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Its all an oscillation and balance isn’t it.. I mean sometimes we swing to one extreme only to learn a new state of balance. A dynamic one… trying to write something about this over the past day or so.. Lots of love your way. ❤
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Haha, I’m sorry, this stuff just comes out of my brain too easily–– it’s ADHD!
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Its cool I am a bit the same at times. ❤
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