Down in flames

Sometimes there is only this

A deep pool of sadness and suffering

That feels it will entirely obliterate the landscape

A grief wells when I feel your distance

And how unreachable you are

I keep trying to connect

Even though you are behind glass

And wonder when the last time will be

While memories of her final days

Play over inside of my mind

I could not stay when the drugs took her spirit away

And so I left

Waiting for the news

At the side of her bed

You called me a loose cannon

Because I dared to confront the truth

Knowing it would be my fate to be silenced

So now if my head at times feels like it will explode

You will never know the why and how of it

And I realise there is no point

In holding onto this suffering

Over all that I was powerless to change

And while the world outside my window burns

I cry for the planet

And wonder if we are ever really going to wake

Or will it all

Just go down in flamces