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killing me

the vacant space you left

is filled with emptiness

its hard to breathe today

All the words you used to say

live on inside of me

with their messages of love

so different to the inner voices

I struggled with before

and as much as I have chosen

To close the door on this

my heart will not allow me to do it

its suicide territory

trying to find the way through

the pain

and when I saw his face

and the soldier’s arms

that held a gun

I thought my heart would come

totally undone again

who is this man

who seems to hold the final link

between you and me

I dare not open the door again

for I fear my heart

will be blown away

and anyway

as it is

grieving the end of us

is nearly killing me

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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    1. Yes i know this Ivor i got myself out of the house something big is going on here and i get sucked under in that house don’t worry ill kerp fighting to live your love gives me hope. Theres a brighter life out there than the sacrificial one ive been sucked into over these past years and years

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  3. As painful as this is, you have survived hell and back. You are stronger than death and this too shall pass. You did nothing wrong. You believed in someone when you had every reason to never believe in anyone ever again. That is remarkable. You are remarkable. You emerge from the dark night and you do it over and over. Fuck anyone who doesn’t love you properly but don’t put yourself in that category. Stay strong, firefly ♥️🖤

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