Often I sit here
And feel as though I am stranded
So very far away on a foreign shore
I look to you and your gaze is turned away
And then I fall into my emptiness
But I also know that with my loving attention
In time emptiness can become full
As I feel the longings of my self I had to bury
And realise it was futile to reach in this way
For your attention and love
And yes, then I want to get somewhere
So very far away
To the place where I feel whole
Unbroken by this pain
And yet when I leave you I feel the darkness
In my soul of past memories of leavings
All the times I was cast out
Especially after Dad died
To wander in the world alone.
Today I told you of the pain
Of the darkest years
But those are far behind me now
And yet sometimes
The scars remain
And all I can do now is realise
That I can be with you in this now
And that in time I can also walk away
Knowing now the healing power
Of forgiveness in my heart
For so much that hurt me in the past
That made me feel so lonely
And set apart
Knowing it was all for a reason
The painful revelation
Of my truest Self
Heartbreaking yet beautiful.
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Thank you for feeling it. 💖
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so so powerful Deb! Absolutely stunning poem! xoxo
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Carol Anne..Alex of Evolution of Self asked me to ask you to message him today.
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I don’t have an email address for him do you?
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I only have his facebook contact
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Okay, what is that? If you could give it to me that would be good? Thanks Deb and if you want to add me to Facebook you can I let you know in an email with my info
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Okay im.just eating his contact is Corey Orion on FB Whats your email Carol Anne?
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Shirley1980@eircom.net but my Facebook email address is different my one for Facebook is doglover1980@eircom.net add me xx
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Okay his email is
monsterz nightmare@live.ca
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Could you email it to me I can’t seem to get the email address to work here on WordPress
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Deb can you give him my Facebook email address dog lover that one give that to him and ask him to friend me on Facebook and I can message him then if you could do that for me that would be great thanks Deb X
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Okay
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Xoxo
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I forwarded it on
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Thanks hun xxx
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