falling

in the dark when I was falling

solid land having disappeared

you happened upon me by chance

inviting me to

this mixed up dance

promising to

catch me when I fell

three times it happened

and once I even hit my head

did my body know

well beforehand

how toxic you would be for me

years later now

all I can say it this

God I am grateful to be free

even though at times

I fall

for there is not only

deep dark space

around me now

and I know how wonderful it is

to finally feel

my feet in touch

with solid ground