with hands that shaked

A place of peace feels like home

Calmly resting inside a gentle space

That feels like spring

Breath of wind

Watching as the blossoms fell

Feeling the kiss of sun on skin

Here I am complete within myself

Free of feelings of responsibility for

All of those things I feel for

But cannot control

All of those wounds you carry

That were never of my making

Maybe it is time for me to

Let go

Of hoping to bring you healing

Maybe it is time for me to find a way to feel

Free

To allow myself to be happy

Because sometimes lately

When the abrasive cuts of others judgement

Sting

I remember how hard it felt

To never be understood or beheld

For who I truly was

And the recognition of how I

Consented to this invalidation

Turning it inward upon myself

Hurts me so

So heartbreaking to see the lack of love

You gave

Leaving me holding all the blame

In a body that ached

With hands that shaked

And it is then I most feel the deepest hurt

Opening me up to all the love

That life so often withheld

From me

So very very painfully