So sad to think of all that I endured
Waiting on you
When I was only meant to be
Your satellite
Never truly beheld or seen
So impossible to break this trance
Of feeling it was something askance
In my heart
That led to this
How long must I carry
All of this neglect
In a world of those
With souls bereft
And believe me I know
That this is not the whole of life
So maybe its up to me now
To take out the knife
And excise what no longer feeds
Light and life and joy
Scattering all my valuable seeds
On barren soil
I am not your meaningless toy
For I was born to live my life
And embrace it
For the very joy
Completely and wholeheartedly
Emerging From The Dark Night 
I love the line not your meaningless toy. Really hits home.
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Aww im sorry for that really..that it resonates..🙄
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Yes, we’ve got to try and live it the best we can, … the after-effects of my strokes, I can have these days of complete fatigue, and I’ve found out they are to occur periodically at any given, so I just have make the most of the good days…. ((Hugs))
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Yes maybe your body just needs you to rest some days…and the tough days really make you appreciate the good ones.
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Yes Deb, I’ve learnt that I’m fortunate to have recovered so well, and I thoroughly appreciate my better days… ((Hugs))
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Im sure your artitude and poetry help Ivor. Its a big adjustment living alone again.
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Yes sometimes I think it would be easier to have someone to help me, but most of the time I seem to coping ok…. thank you Deb xx
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I wish Jasper and I lived closer I would love to be there to share poems and help you a bit Ivor. I understand we all need help and especially as we age its not good to be entirely alone at home. xoxo
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I’m lucky I can get out and socialise, I can bus every where I need to go. Geelong isn’t a huge city.. 🚍😊
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Yes, I know it Ivor as my ex partner was from Geelong and we visited a few times. Its a great city. Buses are a brilliant way to go.
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Although it’s just become dark and wet, and I had to sprint to the bus stop. 💛🚍🌧️
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Uh oh, rain may be on the way here too. 🙂
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And hugs in return beautiful friend 🤗
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Oh Hugs are definitely good for me, thank you dear Deb xx
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