I just received a text from my friend who passed brother telling me the flowers I sent to her arrived shortly before she died yesterday. It has brought the wound up again, but he said the flowers were a comfort to her. I wasn’t there when my Dad died and I cannot grieve with anyone here because no one here knew her. I am just posting this not for sympathy but to say it is like the old wound of being alone with my grief with no one to give me a hug and I needed to share that. I just needed to share that. This Saturday is the anniversary of my accident too, my chest is on fire.
Post script : After posting this I received a lovely message though from someone else acknowledging my loss who said I now have a guardian angel to call on. Something in me loves and is very comforted by that idea. ❤
Emerging From The Dark Night 
I think your postscript news will help quell the fire in your chest…….
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Thanks Ivor.
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That last two lines are so important
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Yes, finding ways to bring comfort can ease the sharp sting of abandonment feelings I guess, Gary. ❤
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“I now have a guardian angel to call on. Something in me loves and is very comforted by that idea……”
Ohhh that resonates deeply with my soul ….. as I rushed to the hospital when I heard that my Dad was there …. sadly, by the time I reached the emergency room, my beloved Dad had already gone ahead to our True Home, Heaven….. and now, I miss him even more as days and weeks and years pass ….. and I honor that deep missing because it is my way of honoring such a great, sterling man ….. MY BELOVED DAD….. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Oh Yeka I am so sorry. but I hear that you are resigned and accepting of your lost. I was 22 when my Dad died just shy of a month out from my birthday. I send you so much love, how long ago did he die? Hugs and love, Deborah
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