I thought you were trying to harm me
As your arms reached out to enfold me
Within the place
I could not breathe
Close to your chest
As I drowned deep within
The helplessness of this
And yet there was a kindness in your eyes
That I could not see
There was love in your heart
I could not feel
Because I was numbed by the guardians
That stood in the way
Obliterating the chance for me to
Open my heart completely
And so it seemed that I always
Had one foot outside the door
About to run away
My eyes fixed on that far distant horizon
While another part of me wept silently
With the anticipation of departure
And then when the battle ensued
I never really ever knew
What part of me
Would win the fight
Simply beautifully expressed. I am sorry if guardians were your parents as I know this feeling all too well. God bless you for sharing. Love Joni
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I just think both my parents had to grow up far too early so their inner children got buried. I did have beautiful parents but they were too strict. I have more compassion for them now, now I have to work on how my own self protection sometimes holds me back from love. Thanks so much for your feedback. I must read some of your own writing Joni. So lovely that you are here. xoox
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Same with my parents. Their lives were extraordinary hard. Hence their alcoholism in an effort to cope. They were not able to break the cycle of abuse and our lives were frightening as children and teenagers. It took me a long time to really forgive my parents too. I think that is normal we are only human. It is a blessing to me to have found you. I read your work and I understand and can remember the very feelings you are expressing. I appreciate you. Love Joni
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I think forgiveness needs to be a struggle to be truly authentic. Thanks so much for those kind words, Joni. Love Deborah
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Have a truly blessed day. May the sun kiss your face, a butterfly land on your shoulder while a hummingbird hovers close to your heart to let you know just how much your loved. Love you too Joni
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Thanks so much. It is night time and I am close to bedtime but my day was full of special moments. I hope yours is too Joni.
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