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I bled

I bled from this wound

So deeply

Nothing could stem the flow

And was it then

Like the sacred heart of Jesus

Opened on the cross

That in the end liquid of love

Just poured out

Onto dusty ground

But surely this is not the way to go

With arrow lodged so deep

Into flesh

There is no way to breathe

Through the lancing

Surely I would rather be

Laughing

Singing

Dancing

Wild and free

But when I was raised

This was the cage

They made us sit inside

And then the key was entirely

Thrown away

Or so it seems to me now

But surely there is

Another way left

To arrest the trance

To heal the wound

To stem the bleeding

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  1. There is another. Way. I reject all tht stupid Catholic stuff as you do too. Yes. We should be laughing nd free. But lately. I haave been sking what the hell llife is about. My post of yesterday says it all. I reject this kind of “faith” though many will try to keep me in it! Good poem Deborah. I understand it though some won’t

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      1. You are so right Deborah. And when control over your own lieii. Tkken ay tht i the ultimate. Mine isn’t a poem. But truly, your poem is amazing. I LOVED it, sad though it is. Hug.

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      5. I know. I read about it. It sounds horrible. I would be sad in your circumstances. I bet that Jasper is a comfort though. But it would be lovely if you could be with somebody nice, and not alone. I fear aloneness, yet I do like my own space and my own company as well.

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      6. Scott is actually real. We got things sorted today. I am just sad the military demand so much and I am sick of rescuing Lorraine. Its very hard and makes me sad but I know his deployment must end soon. We will then see what happens. I still have hope. Yes, I would be so lost without Jasper… dogs give so much don’t they??

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      7. So sad about Scott. I am glad that you could sort things though Deborah. It really would be wonderful if you could be together. I don’t know much about the military but they sound very hard and discompassionate people. There are too many of those hard nosed sorts around. I would love to see a happy ending for you 😊

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      9. I don’t pray much these days but I will pray for you to be together, and to be able to live in peace and happiness. You deserve that ❤️

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      10. Thank you Lorraine. I really feel deep in my soul we are meant to be. I felt it when I told him today I could not help any more and in the kindness of his response. This is very tough but I so appreciate your vote of confidence. I really really really do. ❤ ❤ ❤

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      11. You are welcome Deborah. I worry about the bank though. They are treating you so rotten. Are they just doing this? Have they anything to back them up in saying he is a scammer? How can they possibly know? Rotten lot!

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      12. It was this one man started all the trouble back in December. I ended up changing banks but one bank has still frozen the money I could be using to help Scott now. I am going to call the ombudsman soon Lorraine, they are treating me like a child.

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      13. Yes that was what I thought Deborah. Treating you like a child. It is your money to do as you choise with. I hope you get somewhere with the ombudsman. This is just so ridiculous. Does your brother try to stop the bank letting you have money? And what if you wanted to go on a nice holiday abroad somewhere? I know you had thought of that and it would have been really nice for you.

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      14. Yes its the paternalistic attitude. As far as my brother is concerned he just is no help at all. I asked him for help in January and he just ignored my email. Sigh. I just accept how it is now. What else can I do but I will take the bank on. I was just hoping when Scott got back we would have firm evidence since there are laws around military disclosure due to the sensitivity of where they are at present.

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      15. Yes I get that Deborah. Well anywy, the bank is being ridiculous. I hope you can take them on and win. Wel done you for keeping your cool with them. I’d be raging now!

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      21. Boundaries are very tricky things. I have got it wrong so many times, and trusted where I shouldn’t. So now I have gone the other way, and don’t let people in easily.

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