Humility

You held me in my pain

And you in doing so

You made a place for my shame

To visit me

As a being with some gifts to give

Which speak to me of how

It might make me free

To feel the extent of my feelings of powerlessness

In humility

I know that when my anger surges

And I wish to lash out

It is only because a wound is sparked

And I think that I may self protect

By gaining some distance

And partly that is true

But I also feel there is so much to learn

By fully opening my heart

To embrace the sense

Of my deeply flawed

And wounded self

Who often almost drowns in shame

For maybe even those feelings are not the truth

But just all a part of my conditioning

Perhaps there is another way to be free

And it lies in uncovering the sore spots

That live within others

As well as deep inside of me

As openness and

Courage to explore

With naked simplicity

Exposes the deep feelings

Of shame or vulnerability

That cause us to act

In ways that only lead

To disalignment

With our most compassionate selves

And so today in the bath

I cried and prayed

And offered my forgiveness

For all the ways

You hurt me

With your judgement

And misunderstanding

As I saw the parts of yourself

You too, had not befriended yet

And how young I felt

And how much pain and confusion

I was lost in then

And it was then I realised that

Truly everyone does the best that they can

At the time

With their level of consciousness

And the ache I felt so deep inside my heart

Made me realise how much I wish

To find a way to live

That allows me to be free

While I recognise

How much deep confusion

Often still lives inside of me

But when I just embrace the mess

Then it seems to me

I am able

To allow that deep distress

To transform itself into something else

Where truth and insights

Shimmer in a vibrant light

Even at times revealed

As blood red and full of angst

Because there amongst the mud and mess

Live the roots and seeds I must explore

In order to learn more of how to live

This inner and outer life

Authentically

Embracing life and relationships

In their full complexity

While learning the oh so

Painful

And necessary

Lessons

Of grounded

Humility