Be the love???

I am sure many of us are familiar with the quote : Be the change you want to see in the world. Well today I was thinking of rephrasing it to say Be The Love You Want To See In the World and maybe we also end up finding what we go looking for or projecting a lot of the time.

That said I just had an encounter with the dog police on our local oval which put a kind of dampner on our usual fun filled free play time there. Apparently some sports people have been complaining about dogs ‘attacking’ them and ‘defecating’. In the couple of years I have been going to that oval I have not see one piece of dog pooh left on the oval despite the many owners who use it and we have never encountered a single dog attack either. When sports are going on there I always keep Jasper on a lead and try to stay clear of the oval.

I had dropped Jasper’s lead by accident on the way to the oval and they informed me Jasper needs to be on it at the oval (what even if people are not using it : during the week there are only a few people there.) This took the shine off the morning for me but luckily I met a lovely kind man with two dogs on the way back the car and he agreed with me how ridiculous the world is getting with regards to dogs and complaints. The human need to control everything and kill the joy out of life never seems to end.

Anyway talking about being the love I want to see in the world, I was not feeling all that loving after this encounter this morning. But when left to my own devices is easier to feel love for life, so maybe even having this hope may be a touch idealistic, who knows.

I seem to expect a lot of myself though at times. I seem to struggle when I feel angry, for me anger seems to come up in relation to things that feel unfair or restrictive or unjust. I am a fairly mindful dog owner and my dog is not aggressive at all, he is very friendly but he didn’t take kindly to the official trying to read his microchip just over an hour or so ago. My dog has good sense, he knows who to steer clear of.

Its hard to feel the love for rules and regulations and maybe that marks me out as someone primed to be an addict as in the fellowship of AA and amongst other recovering persons I find a similar impatience with towing the line, rules and regulations. I was thinking on the way to the car how hard it can be to experience joy and freedom in life. There we were going out to experience some joy in nature only to have a dampner put on it. The man I spoke too on the way back to the car said to me to not worry too much and not to comply too much either when no one else is around down at the oval. “If anyone official turns up, just whack your dog back on the lead and say I am very sorry”….

Despite this I felt the irritation settling into me on the way home I dropped the garage key under the front car seat after the incident and had a bit of a problem finding back where I put my mobile phone, the encounter with this official incident triggered me and rocked my world for a while and disproved my ability to easily overstep things that frustrate me.

I will keep trying to be the love I want to see in the world, but I know sure as eggs once I tell this to the Universe I am going to be presented with incidents and encounters which challenge my ability to live up to my altruistic motives and idealistic loving intentions. 🙂