You held the fire for us
You were the glow of light
The warm spark
The one so full of life and light and energy
And when you left
The darkness came down
Even though my soul tried so hard
To remain in light
All I heard was a lot of
No you cannot
No you wont
And no you don’t
Was it any wonder I ached for you
For the warmth of your sun to reappear
Into our cold dark kingdom
Was it any mistake then
I sought the heat of booze
A way to unfreeze the cold in me
The calcification that took hold
And oh how much it hurt
To see you try so hard
And come undone
So much I had to kill the life
In order to stay as close as possible
To your side
But now I see it all again
With the benefit of clarity
And I hope again for a way to be free
Of the burden of this past
That at times almost breaks me
In half
Oh how I ache for that fire to return
Even if it means I must not totally burn
Everything down within me
That blocks the way to
Light
And life
And fire
Emerging From The Dark Night 
Oh, I remember those days, when she first started suffering, and her light was dim. I sought that alcohol relief….. I was lucky, good friends and family helped me break free of those demon’s,, amazingly she survive another 25 years … So my improvement came at the right time and we both benefited 😊🤗
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I am so so glad you had that support Ivor. I didnt have that after Dad died so I turned to the bottle for 8 more years, then it was hard to accept help.
I am so glad you were able to be there fully for Carol. xoxoxo
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Yes, I was fortunate, and in all those years of caring, we really got on well, she was amazing….. I’ve been playing this all week, it’s an incredible song song, both musically and lyrically…… It’s very meaningful for both of us….. enjoy…..
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💞🤗🌹
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