falling inside

i am lost
inside myself
falling down
through time
and selves

this is now
and not a dream
turning round
to see
shadows

leaving that
remembering
going back
forward
again

not knowing
living in breaths
believing
in tears
and laughs

a new kiss
finding myself
trying hard
to be
this time

i knew you
when i was lost
but found life
saying
goodbye

nightmares cease
but shadows move
past my eyes
taunting
my hopes

dizzying
images spinning
i stood still
watching
my life

clarity
was never there
words tumbling
freeing
my dance

i’m growing
outward and up
falling down
into
the sea

a mermaid
i pretended
swimming down
to see
the sun

swept away
high on the dance
sex in this
movement
to be

no one knows
this secret soul
who whispers
in love
alive

soaring up
to swim in skies
clouds forming
to show
new shapes

i step up