Thundering

I feel the thundering in my head

The avalanche

The storm of us

Fed on thoughts of dread

And all the times feelings misled us

To the true intentions of the heart

Inside that bled

We struggled every way to connect

To reach out through the torrential rain and wind

And it was hard to see it blown apart

Smithereens of pain

That lodged so deeply in the vital parts of us

That were once so full

Of life and light and hope

And so now I struggle to connect

While you would be happy for me to be

Blown away

On the wind

Maybe it is too much more for me to contain any more

The full onslaught of all the traumatic history

I feel my body shattered into pieces

As the fractures between us grow

While I gather what is left

Into the centre of myself

There is no place to run to

So I will have to find a way to be

Free

Letting go seems to be

What life is demanding of me

For there is really nothing

Very much to hold me here

Any more

Only this thundering

Vacancy

Where our connection

Used to be