Sorry

There are times when I just need

The silence of alone

Safe and cosy inside the home

Of my heart

And I know those few years ago

There was a sadness and loneliness so deep

You reached out hoping to be kind

And I was in my mind

So besieged by all that was going on

Days and days spent in emergency with my Mum

Not knowing when the end would come

And now I see how it was for you

When I reacted as I did

I am sorry I hurt you by being so annoyed

There was too much going down

And I was not used to such gestures of generosity

I can see why and how you were hurt

And so I am very sorry

But I also think I did not do anything wrong

It was just where I was coming from at that time

I do not know if you can forgive

We both have so much life to live

Now

After all the pain and trauma hurt and sorrow

Of living with PTSD

We may never get to speak again

But never the less

I want you to know

Deep inside my heart

I am so sorry