To understand myself

How open and raw should I be

As I portray my struggles

To find the way back home to me?

Do I just let it all hang out

Loose the beast within

Twist and yell

And scream and shout?

That seemed to be the way before

To handle the frustration

Especially when my soul

Faced negation

But now I see there is another way

The world I find is often the one

I project with my mind

If you are my enemy or my friend

Doesn’t it all depend

Upon the love I find inside of me?

And aren’t so many of my struggles

Of my own making?

The truth is that I am sometimes

Clear and free

While at others I become

A terrible mess

And when I am

I just confess it

To the open page

I don’t want to live in a cage

That keeps me trapped

Yet so often

In the deep confusion

Of my quest to relate

I get hurt

Or I hurt others

But the truth my friend

At the end of the day

As confused as I am

I am only struggling

To understand you

And to understand me