Just accept :things are working out

I just had this thought after externalising all my mental machinations in a previous post. Its probably a good thing my sister didn’t want me to help her or go to lunch. Maybe I just need to accept this and not worry as much. I then need to get on with my day to make it the best one possible and today that hasn’t been possible as early as it usually is. Havent made it out with Jasper cause it was overcast and cold earlier but sun has burned the clouds away now so its not too late to start my day at 12 pm. A few years ago I would not even have eaten by 12. So I am making progress.

I am seeing more and more clearly all the mixed up confusion I can live in boundary wise. Yes its important when discovering our need for boundaries to isolate for a time. After all we are getting to know ourselves and learning to tune in and undo old messages that got us to discount our true selves in order to be accepted. My mother used to accuse me of isolating all the time when she was alive and failed to understand I the inner work I was doing which was seen as a waste of time. Never the less I began to choose for me and that has been a good thing. I think my sister needs her space too and she needs to work through her cancer treatment with help from other sources just as I had to do when I had mine back in May 2016.

Everything really is working out as it is meant to. I will wait now for my sister to reach out to me.. I know I may be waiting sometime. But just for now maybe I just need to take care of myself and trust that all is working out for the best.. Even when it hurts me sometimes. ❤