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Running a little ragged reflections on boundaries and self care

Its been a full on two weeks and I don’t have long to write right now as I have to leave for another appointment soon. I can tend to overschedule at times not realising when extra stress is making me run a bit ragged. Its how I feel today and I am aware I am close to tears today with tiredness and pressure from all sides and emotional exhaustion due to underlying feelings. Changing my therapy appointment to suit my sister only to find I could of kept it and not had to reorganise my week has hit me a bit hard. I have serious lessons around me lately with holding onto boundaries. Something I am not good at.

I also see after sharing in therapy yesterday that I was started to blame myself again for things that may not have been my fault like my mother falling down the stairs and injuring her back a few years ago which put her on the downward slide to ill health.

Anyway I suffer from huge doses of Catholic unearned guilt. I feel bad for not being able to fix my family and I just got asked for more money from a family member yesterday which nearly made me crack . I cant write more now but I just needed to post this. Self care is not always easy for me and I know it comes with good boundaries but at times my over caring heart gets me in trouble. I am only human and I have my limits. I run very ragged when I don’t realise this and take good care to notice and make self corrections when necessary.

I just made myself a nice roasted carrot, sweet potato and chick pea salad to take with me today. I have an appointment to get my hair coloured today so I will have some pampering this afternoon. I certainly need it after the demands of this week. It will be lovely to have some time just to relax.

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  1. In all seriousness, you need to take care of yourself first because you are no good to others if you can’t be good to yourself! Trust me, I have struggled with this myself in the past, it is not worth it. I made everyone else happy but me and I was the only who gave a shit and ended up only hurting myself in the long run. I am here for you if you need encouragement!! Take care of you~

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  4. Boundaries don’t exist for codependents. The fact that you are aware of the need for them speaks volumes. It’s not easy to change life long habits. Look at how far you’ve come in the two years I’ve known you. Amazing progress! And boundaries will eventually become easier for both of us, I just know this to be true😊

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