Abandoned

You have this way

Of pulling the rug out from under me

Of making me feel as though

I could drop anytime

Into a cesspool of hurting

A swamp from which there would be no safety

From the monsters of the deep

And so on the way home

From our brisk sunshine stroll

I turn heavy metal up so loud

Hoping to scare away my fear

But when I come home

It is there waiting

Convincing me of dreadful possibilities

Reminding me that that I am in many ways

So dependant and unfree

But suicidal thoughts remind me

I have the power to end this

If all support is torn away

And I am not free to live another day

Because you stole all my power away

And abandoned me