Need you?

Will you let me need you

Will you allow me to lean on you

Just a little while

I promise not to take more than I give

I promise my best, not to be a burden

You see I never really realised before

Just how much I need you

I thought it better to deny

What I hid away in fear

All those years ago

And maybe I am realising

It was I who turned away

And when trauma hit

I thought it best to be

Quiet and hidden and self contained

As others needed you more

And so I drank silently

To quell the fear and pain

And in time it turned to shame

So much I can cry now

I did not see how I had to erect

This place of protection

Draw refuge from the non physical

The only place I could ever feel safe

From destruction

But now I see life is not this

Always pain

Always trauma