a wall of water

a wall of water

tidal wave

wont set me free

here we are tumbled about

in the body of our mother’s womb

earth is life

and water flows through the tributaries

feeding life

or when clogged

brings death

as all around us

ancient bodies float

and I recall that long boat trip

it brought the death of their child

and who knows what happened to the grief

fighting for survival

child after child arrived

a struggle to stay alive

but when the lure of alcohol hit

its left in its wake

a twist of anxiety

that poisoned the ancestral line

dogging us down the generations

leaving buried tendencies

which held us hostage

in more ways

than words could ever say

and as the whale it breaches

shore

I find myself once more

on that stormy beach with you

as sadness rises like a flood

revolving around inside of me

threatening to take me down

resting brings the fear of death

but movement is required to sustain

a life

so I must keep fighting to survive

because tears reveal

how badly I want to stay alive

but in the shadows

ancestors voices call

please don’t let this bring the fall

or stumble

as tears tumble down

I feel the curse rumbling underneath

drowning out silence

with the sound of gnashing teeth

as this hunger that drowned

is once again found

buried under the exhaustion

which echoes on

heat rises

as fire burns

and I feel so powerless

against this curse

sensing it wants so much of me

but the price it demands

well it terrifies me

as wall of water

threatens once again to take me down