Anxiety : stream of consciousness

Anxiety lives and grows deep under the surface where no one but you knows it exists And there are triggers of the past that raise their heads When at last you think you will relax This anxiety will try to tax your thinking Tinging everything with fear Ghosts and shadows everywhere Deeper reminders of how much got lost But grief and pain is masked beneath Hiding the true cost from memory While you revolve in the world Struggling to survive and make the very best of things And if at times it grows too much And anger bursts the seams of civility Who will kneel with you in the dust Or pool of tears that flows Once all of those subtle defences and protections Are breeched Will they try to understand The enormity of what your soul has tried Its level best to endure Or will they just see and judge what is most offensive to their sentiment Deeper pain is never fully obvious But the person who may be careening out of control With all the pain that is left unsaid, unintegrated fears and feelings struggles on Trying so hard to contain and channel The enormous charge and awesome life power of this anxiety