As I feel my way deeper into this pain
These tears
I realise I was always feeling alone
Often no one was home
To greet me
I took the key from the nail in the shed
And let myself in
To an empty house
And waited for them
Hours : to come home
I watched tv
Or made popcorn
And when they returned
It was more about their day
I learned to revolve around them
In an effort to be seen
But it never worked
So its probably no surprise
I got so lost
And looked for anything to dull the pain
But the question is
How do I do the same thing
To my inner child
Who longs for love
And to be seen
Now?
And how do I then comply
To help everyone else
Who cries out with the need
That I repressed?
It is said that on the path of healing
All we meet are mirrors
That each and every soul we met
Reflects something of our own inner truth
Back to us
And if this is so
We can learn the lesson
And perhaps find a way
To come home to truths we buried
Along the way?
Another teaching says
To make friends with the aloneness and the pain
With the emptiness
Rather than trying to fill it all of the time
Until it is known
No longer an enemy
Or demon we run from
But why sit in pain
Forever?
For a time does come
To reach again for life and living
To fill the hollowed out places
We let grow deeper
When we refused to see and feel the truth
That is given to us to recognise
And remedy
Emerging From The Dark Night 
“to reach. Again for life. And living.” Yes yes and yes. So true. deborah x
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Some days I can Lorraine but some days, like today the darkness sucks me down again 😦
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I’m sorry you’re having such a bad day. It happens to me like that too. It was bad for me yesterday. The darkness does just suck us in at times. Quite often with me actualky. Much love to you Deborah, and hugs ❤️
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Well I am glad if you are feeling better today, Lorraine and its so true that it comes and goes. We need to remember that don’t we???? Much much much love to you. Thanks so much for your love and friendship ❤ ❤
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You are very welcome Deborah. When the darkness sucks us down we feel so helpless. Sadly, mine comes rather a lot. But that can be life for us can’t it. So sorry you are feeling it right now ❤️
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I feel a lot of love for you. I hope that is some comfort. ❤ ❤
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That is so kind of you Deborah. Yes it is of comfort. And I feel the same for you too. Bless you ❤️
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