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Deeper

As I feel my way deeper into this pain

These tears

I realise I was always feeling alone

Often no one was home

To greet me

I took the key from the nail in the shed

And let myself in

To an empty house

And waited for them

Hours : to come home

I watched tv

Or made popcorn

And when they returned

It was more about their day

I learned to revolve around them

In an effort to be seen

But it never worked

So its probably no surprise

I got so lost

And looked for anything to dull the pain

But the question is

How do I do the same thing

To my inner child

Who longs for love

And to be seen

Now?

And how do I then comply

To help everyone else

Who cries out with the need

That I repressed?

It is said that on the path of healing

All we meet are mirrors

That each and every soul we met

Reflects something of our own inner truth

Back to us

And if this is so

We can learn the lesson

And perhaps find a way

To come home to truths we buried

Along the way?

Another teaching says

To make friends with the aloneness and the pain

With the emptiness

Rather than trying to fill it all of the time

Until it is known

No longer an enemy

Or demon we run from

But why sit in pain

Forever?

For a time does come

To reach again for life and living

To fill the hollowed out places

We let grow deeper

When we refused to see and feel the truth

That is given to us to recognise

And remedy

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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      1. I’m sorry you’re having such a bad day. It happens to me like that too. It was bad for me yesterday. The darkness does just suck us in at times. Quite often with me actualky. Much love to you Deborah, and hugs ❤️

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      3. You are very welcome Deborah. When the darkness sucks us down we feel so helpless. Sadly, mine comes rather a lot. But that can be life for us can’t it. So sorry you are feeling it right now ❤️

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      5. That is so kind of you Deborah. Yes it is of comfort. And I feel the same for you too. Bless you ❤️

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