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With your leaving

I wanted your arms around me

Like this

A tender kiss

A presence that would hold me

Even when the darkness rose

Trying to convince me that those

Painful days were not behind me

And I know my love

You came bringing light

A powerful spirit

To accompany me through those nights

When we could be together

But when your leavings tore

Open old wounds

I was not powerful enough to hold

The child in me who felt she was

Falling through empty space again

Like so many times before

And so if I made demands

You could not stand

I understand how it became

Harder to love someone

Whose own injuries where almost the same

As the ones you had to bury

And there was no way then

For me to answer your fury

With understanding

But I want you to know

That all these long years hence

I appreciate the moments we shared

That grew light

And cast the darkness far away

And even if in the end

The emptiness reclaimed me

With your leaving

Maybe it was all for a reason

And for the rest of my life I will be believing

We did our very best

But in the end the power of our love

Was not strong enough

To hold us together

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  1. I know what a break up feels like. It’s tough. I’ve been single now for a few years. Its been good to have time on my own to work through emotional pain. I really enjoy my own company now. I hope you get to a place where you are happy with being single and love yourself fully. It’s a work in progress for me too 😊

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    1. I am getting there slowly. We broke up at this time of year and I am still processing so many aspects of the relationship and part of it is writing these poems. I hope for love again but I am far happier in my own skin now than I was then. I had so many lessons to learn.

      I am so glad you have reached that happy healing place too. Thanks so much for sharing that with me and for your kind thoughts. I really appreciate it. ❤

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