Drowning in a pool of love

Where can I go

To find the way back to my heart

When we are apart

Then in the silence thoughts begin to flow

And I am not sure

If I will ever know the truth of this

 

At times I feel you are so real

And there is comfort

At the thought that one day you may be near to me

But then the thoughts of doom embrace my thinking

And the pain of confusion rises up like an ocean

Carrying me away

Inside its flood

My chest burns with the fire of unrequited longing

As I struggle to keep believing

In all of the promises you made

 

This pain and fear and sadness is so familiar to me

It comes and goes like waves

That break

Upon a distant shore of my consciousness

 

How can I find the way

Back to my heart

And how can I overcome the fear that if

I just listen to it

In time I will be emptied out of everything

 

Oh sometimes how I rue the day

We ever connected

But I cannot turn back the tide

Or push away all the harsh experiences

During which I tried so very hard to bring you home

To me

 

I no longer know the truth

And slowly I see my receding youth

Disappearing with each painful recurring memory

Of all the times love departed

As the door of my heart

Slammed shut again

Leaving me helpless drowning

In a pool of love