Sometimes I ache : stream of consciousness

Sometimes I ache For the comfort of a lover’s arms I long to be Once again That little child Wrapped up in a cosy blanket Being read stories Or just in place Where my whole body did not hurt From all the shards of things That forced their way into me All throughout my oh so painful childhood and adolescence I remember being in the car With broken pieces of metal inside me It was so hard to breath As my ribs cut my lungs And fluid poured in And there was not a thing I could do for myself I was just trapped there And behind me they came With a mask That I tried to fight off It was so bad That in the hospital My own father did not recognise me Who is that poor girl He asked my Mum It was in 2005 I remembered that And flying up for a higher view I finally saw how it all affected him And it was less than half an hour later I crashed On the Mill Road Splitting my head open Not one soul Who knew and loved me close I was 12,00 miles away from ‘Home’  So if now I scream and yell When the possibility of comfort is stolen again Please will you find Deep within your heart A way to forgive me I was just so very torn apart by everything And its taking me such a long, long time To come back together.