The whole of me

You wanted me to be happy You wanted a girl without too many complications Someone not already broken apart or undone But so many things Far too powerful to name That for years and years and years She carried so silently in secrecy and shame

But don’t you understand my love What you do to me When you will not let me be free To be the very one I was born to be Because I have a heart so often heavy with sorrow And for moments at a time I feel that the weight of tomorrow Maybe entirely too great a burden to carry Weary as I have grown with this struggle to live and grow and support myself all alone

But then at other times too the sunlight comes And another part of me longs to burst into song And I do not know at any time which part of me will Choose to make its appearance Or keep me prisoner still

So please my darling If you say you want me in you life Don’t be the cause of yet more trouble and strife because I am sorry but my heart won’t let me be loved with conditions and its a gamble everyday if my sadness will be in remission

I can only give you this : My entire heart and soul Sometimes troubled at others feeling alone While offering you yet another deeper part that senses An open field that exists beyond all of these complicated feelings and fences

So if you can live with this conundrum Open the door and come inside

But if not my darling, please say goodbye