What am I projecting/expecting?

 

At times I question deeply why I feel I don’t belong.

Is it just that this is the familiar refrain of a song

That I have believed far too long?

Is it really that you don’t see or know me as I wish

Or is there more complexity

To what I feel is a thwarted desire

That so often sets my soul on fire

With a burning of hurt?

For the situation as it really is

Is not always clear to see

Perhaps a thousand fears are hidden here

Beneath projection

And I am wishing for something

That must always remain unspoken

Or hidden beneath reflections

A belief that good things could never

Should never

Would never

Be possible for me

Who knows if its just my yearning and imagination

That tends to mistakenly perceive that I am unseen

Rejected

Misunderstood

Forgotten

Or is it that

In just seeing deeper than the surface

I make you uncomfortable

Am I correct

Or am I mistaken?

Am I loved and wanted

Or really forsaken?