When I feel love

When I feel love

Everything that was barricaded in me before

Falls away

And I find myself floating in an open sea

I know enough to know by now

Love is not about being in control

Because every time I reach for it

Love seems to fly out the window

And the harder I try to hold on to it

The more it slips through my fingers

Just like quicksilver

But when I open myself to letting go fully

Of all my soul holds deep inside

All of the longing

Heartache

Joy and pain

I find myself in a heavenly place

Where everything is in flow

Turned to liquid

And if the heart has reasons

That reason cannot understand

Then love is an experience

That leads us far beyond the mind

Is a form of undoing

Of all of our best laid plans

Revealing to us

Just for these brief instants

The heartbeat of God