Another life

Another life

Is lost to me now

I know the past will not come again

And so that is why

Now I say I would like to leave it behind

Even as a wiser part of me knows

That it will

Forever be a part of me

But I am now someone who wants to live

In this present time

With the people who mean the most to me

For the loss of time

And connection

Due to the great fear I struggled with

Took from me for too many years

Too many opportunities for intimacy

As I struggled with demons

That tried to convince me

They did not exist

And no one else could be trusted

But today when you spoke

Of how you struggle too

I breathed a sigh

And unencumbered my burden

Seemed to fly so far from me

As I recalled how many of us know

How it is to be trapped

And shadow box

With all the lies

Our critic tries to tell

Which sever us from love

Of self and other

As we cover the truth over

With deceptions

That keep us prisoner in our minds

While locking our hearts shut tight

But if we don’t wake up

And surrender all this fear

Which built defences over so many years

How will we ever know love

And the joy of surrender

To a present that appears to be

Nothing at all like the past?