The strong one

I put on a bright face

I try to be strong

When the ones I loved hit the wall

I did my best to help and carry on

But you know sometimes it all gets too much

I do what I wish others would do

What I know God would have me to

But what I am realising today

There is a limit

And I feel that I am at the limit

It was not easy today to say

No this is too much for me

I can not always be the strong one

I cannot always do the ‘right’ thing

And I cannot always deny

That the arrow you shot

Didn’t leave a wound

Or say it only went as deep as flesh

When really there is a poison left

And circulating around

In my blood stream

You may have decided to live a number life

But the truth is

I just don’t think I can any more

What am I here for

If not to be true and real

And just maybe its time

I stop lying to myself

And admitted that just for once

I can not always be the strong one

Who picks up the slack