Away from you

I was already moving away from you

When you came near

And you may think I did not care

But it was only fear

My love that made me turn my back on you

For when you opened your heart to me

And showed the possibility

That here could be a place of care

It was as though all the demons in me began to shout

Don’t let him come near

For there will only be danger

Should something terrible come to pass

And now when these empty spaces of silence open up

To me they are a lot like grief

There are no words to tell

The depths to which my soul and being plummets

And I realise

That now

There will be no easy way out

Because I have already become attached to you

And attachments hurt

When they are torn away

No matter what the Buddhists say

So as I wait and wish and dread

I know its only thoughts inside my head

That see you sealed inside a wooden box

While outside I cry and mourn the loss

Who knows what is happening so far away

But there is only one thing I can say

Here I will stay

Heart open

No longer

Moving away from you

For there is no longer

Any place to run

Should everything between us

Come undone