I just want to be a child!

Well today I felt all of 6 years old.  I realise I am a person who pretty much wants to stay a kid.  Not in terms of throwing tantrums or anything but I am done to the back teeth with the adult world of hyper responsibility.  I just want to live a simple life of fun and innocence and joy and bust apart any of the nasty places inside of  me that I express in reaction to disappointment.  Life cannot always go my way so why not have an attitude of good grace about it all and remain as a child who has faith and still chose to believe in love?   (While not also being blind to more painful truths either).  Often if I just let my heart open when disappointment comes and feel it through I then can let it go instead of keep ruminiating upon it over and over with painful stories of life’s unfairness or unjustness which only end up causing me even more heartache.

This child in me knows that life is full of awe and love and joy and wonder if I keep the eyes and heart of my soul open and my wits about me.  She opens me to these gifts.  Adult self can get all twisted about with its oughts and shoulds.  Today I really feel like leaving that part of myself behind just to embrace the simple joy of this present moment.