Unchosen

Reaching your heart across this expanse

You can only feel but not see me

So how can your vision be complete

Formed as it is by your own need and want

I know the perception you feel of my heart

That is pure and true

Is on some level right

But do you also know the darkness

That rises up on days like these

Where emptiness reminds me of times

I had to strive so much

Not only to fill up empty space

For myself alone

But everyone else too

Because the knowledge I carried

Would not let me rest

Or ever let me go

Guilt was there for a burden I never caused

But through some misplaced idea

Felt it was my mission to heal?

But this illusion is falling apart now

Can’t you see how much I need you

As I try to push you away

Though I also do not?

Don’t you see that I am so tired

Of having to do it all myself?

Saturn Moon you won’t let me rest

Nor give me any comfort

Unless I can just be here alone

Loosening all other claims

Finally finding peace

Not knowing how any other way

Truely feels

Knowing it will perhaps never be possible for me to trust

In a fate for which I was not

For some reason

Chosen.