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This wound in me

Self esteem

This wound deep inside

Didn`t start with me

But today it is my responsibility to take care of it

I cannot blame you

If you trigger my wounded places

That is down to me

(Caring for myself – understanding triggers)

What you did may be a reminder to me

And then

It is my job

To stay long enough with my hurt insides

To feel where the original arrow lodged and do my best

To pull it out

And tend the cut

I won`t pour scotch or salt on it anymore

Those solutions do not work

This wound

Needs love to heal and repair

And self care

And yes

Even that nasty word discipline

That I so often feel has wounded me enough

That often I want to throw it out the window

But then it is only me that will crash

When my arse hits pavement 20 stories down

And it will be up to me

To get up again

Figure out where I got it wrong

And start to try to work

To heal and practice true self care

All over again

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

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  2. It’s taken me a long time to realise it but self care has to be the priority. In looking after ourselves physically and emotionally we are better placed to deal with whatever life throws at us.
    Take care xx

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