Self Doubt

So many times

When I don’t know what to say

I speak anyway

And that I think is my mistake

Sometimes this world confuses me with its power

There are those who speak with such great conviction

While I stand in the wings

At times like a frightened rabbit

Not sure that this world is even safe

For me to negotiate

And not be trapped in headlights

Or run over by the car

With a driver driving on high beam

Today my stomach has gone to mush

And its still so hard to know who or what it is

That I can trust

(Fearing I doubted anyway A truth too hard to face)

Toughing it out only takes you so far

When really

It is in acknowledgng our vulnerablity

We find the power to grow stronger

So why is it that I fear and still falter

At times so confident

At others so full of self doubt