Doom laden

A heavy feeling of fear

Often dominates the empty spaces you left me with

But the empty spaces were also inside you

So how could you fill me up

With the positive stuff?

My heart aches for you

And what you lived

(What you bequeathed me with.)

How hard you tried

On the back of hidden losses you had to bury

There was no one there to understand

The real conditions driving you

And others so often left you with a pain

That did not start with you

And drove everyone away

But was yours to carry

Alone for so many years

So that now

When a chance at happiness comes

Its hard for you to believe

It can be true

Would God have brought you this far

Only to drop you back

Down into the abyss again?

But it is what you most fear

As doom laden voices

Try to keep your Soul

Locked up safe

So far

From true happiness