I feel your pain

I feel your pain

So deeply

Because I have known similar pain

I know what it is like to feel so empty

Its impossible to feel anything

But the desire to be taken

So far away from that empty place

 I know how long it takes

To finally surrender to that emptiness

Instead of fighting it every day

I know the voices in your head

That want to lay us to waste

To cut us away from all connection

Keeping us hostage in

A place of fear and separation

I know the thousand “I’m not good enoughs”

and “I have faileds”

That haunt the soul

Like ghosts

And I know that part of us

That wants to take up a gun

And blow us apart

I know how it is to feel that each day

Is a living death

And to suffer so acutely the desperate absence of light

To believe that darkness will swallow your soul

Completely

I know how hard it is to breathe

When tangled weeds of fear and anxiety

Strangle your heart and lungs

But I also know there is a light still shining

Somewhere

Small as it is

A flickering flame

Alight in the darkness

And I cannot tell if on your journey it will find the capacity

To re-ignite

I only know that

The very fact that you can feel this much pain

Or emptiness

Shows your soul is still alive

Somewhere

And is working so hard each and every day

For your redemption