I longed for you

I longed for you in the dead of night

When nothing seemed right

And my heart was breaking

I felt my soul yearning

As the world kept turning

And this deep longing

Was an ache to know all I never could

That others just receive naturally

All that was never sown

Into skin and flesh and bone

I wandered in sleep

Through so many forgotten streets

And along dark passage ways

That led to prisons

Where I suffered extinction

Firm in the conviction

That everything was broken

But then in the waking

When everything was taken

I realised

As I felt my heart break open

To my deepest fear

Of being alone

And the awareness of deeper vulnerabiities

Driven by need

That all along

Love was the only answer

To the question of wanting

To love it all

And enter fully yearning

While also learning

How to touch that pain lightly

And let go