I felt bad about hanging up on my brother on Monday night in the early hours of this morning. I thought it was a very immature way to just hang up but then I realised I was angry and could not find the words “I dont feel you are listening to me, so I am feeling angry and I am going to go now!” I just reacted as I do. I dont need to feel shame or guilt for it because my response was valid. At the same time I do feel for my brother because now that Mum and Dad are gone and he is chief exectuor of everything he is having to be the one to protect and try to care for us. My sister finally responded yesterday as I sent her a text to say I was scared and thinking of her and hoped in the hospital psychology care facility she would get the help she needed, love empathy and understanding as well as tools to manage her anxiety and feelings. She took a while to get back to me and it was a great message saying how she realised she wasnt well for some time and had been isolating. I know the grief she carries in her heart and I felt so much for her oh she also told me she loves me. That made me so so happy. It was soft and tender. I told her I am not up to visiting her yet and that in meditation yesterday I sent her love. So yesterday morning’s anxiety decreased significantly by early afternoon.
Anyway thats my update. I see my brother getting her into care was a good thing not necessarily something to be scared about, I just hope they help her to deal with her feelings and suggest she gets some talk therapy so she can make better sense of things. I am glad too she is not stuck in her apartment alone as her head was beating her up. Please keep my sister in your prayers if you could?
Emerging From The Dark Night 
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I wish I could give you a hug.. thank you for that heart ❤
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I wish I could too. Maybe one day. I think we’d have some killer conversations that’s for sure. You always make me think. I love that. You have an incredible mind my friend.
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I know we would and thanks for just being you and able to recognise that. X
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Most certainly. Love and light to you all, may that healing bring your hearts closer ❤
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I dont know as far as he is concerned i am “a loose cannon” I dont think that is going to change sadly not all is love and light I have to be realistic.
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Trust me, his actions will make him eventually face himself…we all do in the end, and it is there that we will find that happiness we have always been looking for ❤
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I hope so Mark ❤
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Sometimes silence is better though right? Hanging up was. Just your way to let words go unsaid. Prayers to your sister right now
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So true Bethany…. I get confused and think how I react is wrong as he tends to make me feel that way. Thanks so much for your support and feedback. Feel so fond of you ❤
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Having a caring sister like you, I believe she’s going to be just fine. ❤
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Thank you so much. ❤
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